This dream is hard for me to admit… I teach teenagers with special needs and lately I’ve been having dreams about having sex with my students. Really, they’re more like nightmares. At least once a week I’ll have one. Sometimes it’s consensual and sometimes I’m being held down against my will. One I really remember was one of the bigger kids in the class holding me down and calling me a “dumbass” or a “retard.” This kid is kind of the class bully and he’s always out of line, calling other kids names and getting physical with them. I know I’m supposed to be impartial but I really don’t like this kid. I’ve had a few dreams about him. Sometimes I get away from him and sometimes I don’t. Most of the dreams take place in the classroom or somewhere else in the school (behind the bleachers, out back at the dumpster, in my car, etc.)
I don’t know why I’m having these dreams. I got into working with these kids because I wanted to make a difference– I don’t feel attracted to them at all. I really care about them, but I guess I must be a little scared of them too. I keep having these dreams and obviously I can’t tell anyone about them. I worry that this means I belong in a different line of work.